Censor

Yesterday I was conflicted over whether or not to post the picture of me holding Beary, but I reminded myself why I started this blog. I reminded myself that I didn't start sharing to then censor major aspects of my grief. The only mother-daughter pictures I have with Alaska are my belly pics and now the one with Beary. This entire experience is incredibly messy. It is painful. It is beautiful. To be true to my grief, I share all of these.